i wish
i documented all of my high-lizations. i don’t smoke weed anymore, but i did for a really long time. then i quit. then i started again. then i quit again…etc. etc.
i love the way my brain works when i am high, but i do not like the inability to be happy in social situations when i am high. i am a very social person, and i love being around all of my friends, as well as meeting new people. when i smoke weed, i become a different person, socially. it feel like i am crawling out of my skin.
when i am high and alone, or with gordon, i feel so euphoric. i wish that could carry on into my social interactions. i have tried and tried to work it out, to no avail.
anyhow - i guess if i ever start smoking again, i will write more.
